you're in my blood like holy wine

KUNDALINI YOGA

2006-10-28T14:48:00.000-07:00

http://www.dlshq.org/download/kundalini.htm#_VPID_38

By
SRI SWAMI SIVANANDA

A DIVINE LIFE SOCIETY PUBLICATION

Craigslist portland

2006-10-27T12:45:00.000-07:00

http://portland.craigslist.org/mlt/roo/226357934.html
226357934

$250 Basement room for rent in Southeast SE - CHEAP!
http://portland.craigslist.org/mlt/roo/226207856.html

$295 and up includes utilities large house 1/2Blk from bus,Eastport Plaza
http://portland.craigslist.org/mlt/roo/226475114.html
226475114

$400 Great house, great roomies! Room for RENT - SE

Lots of stuff here julie!!
end of month specials

should put ad for us:
smokers, hippies, she-guarinteed ssd income,
he- difter/activist,lots of food stamps, loves dvd's and vid games
will fix you computer!!

http://portland.craigslist.org/mlt/roo/226210761.html

$395 Huge home, hot tub, work out room, quiet, PICTURES
http://portland.craigslist.org/mlt/roo/225807021.html
225807021

$365 Great room for rent
http://portland.craigslist.org/mlt/roo/225104331.html
225104331

searching rooms 200-400$ in SE Portland
http://portland.craigslist.org/search/roo?maxAsk=400&minAsk=100&query=se

Pickaxe - The Cascadia Free State Story Pickaxe - The Cascadia Free State Story

2006-10-24T14:32:00.000-07:00

Pickaxe documents efforts to halt logging at Warner Creek.

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-1915772001649860572&q=cascadia&hl=en

Julies drivers

2006-10-17T11:22:00.000-07:00

HP Pavilion a1110n Desktop PC - Product Specifications
http://h10025.www1.hp.com/ewfrf/wc/document?lc=en&cc=us&dlc=en&product=470505&lang=en&docname=c00388349

Software & Driver downloadsHP Pavilion a1110n Desktop PC
http://h10025.www1.hp.com/ewfrf/wc/softwareList?os=228&lc=en&cc=us&lang=en&product=470505&dlc=en

AdiNath Link to Forums

2006-10-07T12:12:00.000-07:00

http://opendoor.nathorder.org/2006/03/02/on-neo-tantra/

Notes on breathwork

Matching another persons breathing is a powerful way to gain a deep rapport with that person.There are more ways to do that than just breathing together.Here are a few suggestions to try... Gently stroke a part of your lovers body in time with their breathing. I like the small of the back, it's easily acessible while lying together. Stroke gently up on inhale, down on exhale. After doing this for a time change the rate of your stroke and see if their breathing follows... if it does you have vry good rapport. Slow down to relax, speed up to...Other interesting areas are the area between the neck and shoulder, the back of the knees or the hands.

http://curezone.com/forums/fm.asp?i=523901#i

Scotia died :(

2006-09-22T09:20:00.000-07:00

Gary gave me the news last night...
He OD'd years back
Can't say it suprises me.
We had GREAT times together.
His moms houseboat on the williamette had a
hot right on the water! Was really hoping to
see him walk through the door at the
Port. AA club

Fell in love last night with Erica America!
Energy like Davis's and we hit it off
immediatly. Definit incentive to clean and
rejuvinate.

Back @ my Alma Mater!

2006-09-21T09:44:00.000-07:00

Made Portland by 6pm yesterday
wet and 5 rides to get into Vancouver took the
Tri-Met into Oregon with the help of
a wet transfer i found at the bus stop

Telnet access @ PSU library!!!!
they have long hours as well!!

Ran ito a few old friends at Portland Alano Club
and got message to Julie WHOIS STILL ALIVE!!

Things are in motion
found great bush to sleep behind construction site

Landed in Oly @ the free geek school

2006-09-19T23:05:00.000-07:00

High drama escalating too close to BauHouse Coffee
Washed the seattle off of my ass @ Bruce's
Took the city buss to Tacoma and then to Oly for all of $3.50
DR's got office in free geek school right behind media island.
No worries tonight!! Exactly into the arms of the cool activists!!!
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40 / 20 Deliverance
Relaxed Structuring
(55->40->59->37)
"HSIEH : loosen, disjoin, untie, sever, scatter; analyse, explain, understand; release, dispel sorrow; eliminate effects, solve problems; resolution, deliverance. The ideogram: horns and knife, cutting into forward thrust."ERANOS p444
Image :
"[With containment comes awareness] : Deliverance.
One generously responds to forgiving wrongdoing."
With a context of containment we utilise (sudden) awareness.

Commentary
In hexagram 40 we have the explicit form of release from tension; the loosening of structure. The first flash of lightning and crack of thunder signalling the break of a storm. In the image, from a position of security one is able to forgive generously, and thus reduce tension. This is an explicit act of tension release, compared to the hexagram's complement, hexagram 37 The Family, where the implicit nature of the structured environment is relaxing; here it is the release of structure that works. Contextually, from a position 180 degrees apart, we develop through compromise and thus deliverance - the relaxing of structure.

Had vision of my mars in pisces, venus in cancer as part of
my liberation challenge!!

40. Kieh - (our 32)
Hsieh (Kieh, Chieh): Deliverance
HEXAGRAM 40:
The injuries that remove good fortune, have to be removed. And getting confidence tends to "shoot" small minds to their secret loss. Few know it.

40 LIBERATION

2006-09-19T14:36:00.000-07:00

40 LIBERATION
FORECAST
After a period of tension has been overcome,
restoring conditions to normal should be
done as quickly as possible to ensure a
complete renewal. In celebration, care
should be taken not to aggravate the
situation again with triumphant claims.

Got attacked by 4 opponents last night
held then all off and escaped via friendly
taxi driver!
TIME TO LEAVE SEATTLE!!
I'M DONE!! Door closes here, door opens in PORT

HEXAGRAM 25

2006-09-15T17:56:00.000-07:00

hex 25

Good Working Proxy Link

http://gecko-proxy.com/

Trip to the woods Triangle CampGround!

2006-09-15T17:36:00.000-07:00

Gemini Rising plus all
the evil virgo shit is under the horizon! Moon in Cancer...healing big time 2 whole days!!

http://camptrc.org/

TAMI IS HAOLE!! >:(<

2006-09-14T18:30:00.000-07:00

I make offering to my ancester guardian PELE' to visit
this poser b*tch.
Fu**s everyone in Earth First!
F**ks everyone in Bell Town
Fu**s everyone in AA
Diverts me from my goals to satisfy her CL*T
Uses my magick to get herself a JOB
Comes between me and TESS to keep me locked UP
Spreads dirt about me all the time with sole knowledge
of what awesome shit i've accomplished and
what a miracle it was i survived Eugene at all!!
Drives me to Duvall to get exposed to DEPLEATED U******!!
Steals my food and leaves me half starving on the street all
winter AND tells everyone I WANT IT THIS WAY.

PELE' I PRAY that this WORM is never promoted to SNAKE!!!

SEATTLE IS HAOLE II >:(<

2006-09-14T18:17:00.000-07:00

The GODDESS OF FIRE PELE' SkyWalks on the Rainbow Bridge between Kipahulu to Manua Loa

Gods and Goddesses, including Pele, were believed to be akua noho, gods who talked. They could take possession of an earthly being, who became the god's kahu. Malo writes, "The kahu of the Pele deities also were in the habit of dressing their hair in such a way as to make it stand out at great length, then, having inflamed and reddened their eyes, they went about begging for any articles they took a fancy to, making the threat, 'If you don't grant this request, Pele will devour you.' Many people were imposed upon in this manner, fearing Pele might actually consume them." Naturally, people who had seen others destroyed in Pele's fiery lava flows, were terrorized by such a kahu.

SEATTLE is HAOLE!! >:(<

2006-09-14T17:01:00.000-07:00

Howlie is a mythical creature that has no soul. White people are howlies or if they have lived on the island a long time they may be granted the status of hapa howlie or half howlie
Source
This is the way I heard it on Maui!!
I was INVITED to Maui by a Native named Pua i traveled with to rainbow gatherings, and got arrested with doing Earth First actions to save the last remaining redwoods in northern Cally.

Howlie is an UNINVITED Guest which is 99.999999 percent of the whiteys!!!
Very Very few are invited by natives.
It is impossible to exploit Hawaii and redeem yourself in the eyes of PELE'

If you are invited to Hawaii you are treated as visiting native royality, red carpet all the way..
Don't fuck with the locals or you fuck with PELE', she makes Durga/Kali look like a kitten.

If you lived on Hawaii it is tough being a Haole pronounced howlie. The word means no soul which Hawaiians think of folks who are not native.
My brother in law had to change schools twice because he spent two years running for his life and getting the crap kicked out him by locals. They even have sporting days called "beat up a Haole day"
My wife had her then boyfriend dragged out her car at a stop light by four Hawaiians and they proceeded to kick the crap out him. His only offense was being a haole.

self constructive realizations

2006-09-11T16:06:00.000-07:00

eugene -> tami -> brain sex -> drifter -> life path ->
quantum -> non-locality -> altered states ->
art history ->

A Little Black Spot on the Sun Today

2006-09-07T16:32:00.000-07:00

Going to Larry's for my fix
Don't know what else to do
Kurtis Breezed into town...broke
Sa La Vie....

Pickingill Eco-response Coven

2006-09-06T19:36:00.000-07:00

High Priestess Quandot
High priest Tachyion
Time Monnrise every Third to Full Moon
Equinoxes Solstises Sabbats
Place NE Wooded Shadow of Capitol Hill

Skyclad purifications by Fire Water Scourging
Binding Poetry of Rebellion and Redemption
Yoga Lust Tantra and Blood Letting
Rebirthing Tattooing Peircing and Animal Familuars

Deathrow Crowley Links in txt

2006-09-06T18:03:00.000-07:00

links

Ritual Scourging in Pompei

2006-09-05T13:51:00.000-07:00

Notice the initiate is being flayeled about the area of the neck. This is the point of contact for most parasitic psychic leechs.

Not unlike the use of the kyosaku/keisaku stick in Rinzai and Soto Zen Practice.

Suppposedly it is use to "heighten" awareness. Of course it would cause a big fat flood of adreaneal juice in the recipient and any by'za'ers!

Gardners Chart 6-13-1884

2006-09-02T17:53:00.000-07:00

astrolog chart cgi

Gardnerian Book of Shadows

2006-09-02T17:36:00.000-07:00

Book of Shadows

Pickingill -> Pickens

2006-09-02T16:58:00.000-07:00

could explain Jacks "powers"

Read Your Own Palm

2006-09-02T16:41:00.000-07:00

palm reading

Ouija Board Online

2006-09-02T16:08:00.000-07:00

ouija

Great Java Chess!

2006-09-02T14:30:00.001-07:00

Thinking Machine

frag ment

2006-09-02T11:18:00.000-07:00

# the edged vitalessence tipped accuity engineering a slowly spiraling seperatness
observing somewhen inside this outsided affine unmindfullnessfor
RANDOM ( person i meet ) ;
let intrest = 10
for every occurance
intrest = intrest -1
if intrest = 0

Good Online Chess

2006-09-02T11:06:00.000-07:00

http://chess.delorie.com/

Double Loxodrome

2006-09-01T16:26:00.000-07:00

Calculus Applets

2006-09-01T14:45:00.000-07:00

http://www.math.gatech.edu/~bourbaki/JavaProjects.html

http://www.ies.co.jp/math/products/calc/menu.html

http://www.slu.edu/classes/maymk/MathApplets-SLU.html

http://www.mph.net/coelsner/calcapps/

Good one ->
http://www.univie.ac.at/future.media/moe/galerie/int/int.html#intuitiv

Quatum Applet!
http://www.math.harvard.edu/computing/java/links.html

WHERE MASS COMES FROM ?

2006-09-01T11:31:00.000-07:00

Transistor Animation

2006-08-31T13:04:00.000-07:00

Good calculus animations

2006-08-31T12:42:00.000-07:00

http://www.math.odu.edu/cbii/calcanim/#quad

http://www.ima.umn.edu/~arnold/graphics.html

http://www.gap-system.org/~history/HistTopics/The_rise_of_calculus.html

http://math.bu.edu/people/paul/225/aapmt_talk.html

http://home.earthlink.net/~mmc1919/venturi.html

Thursday

2006-08-31T11:57:00.000-07:00

Good N-Curve Explanation!

2006-08-30T16:25:00.000-07:00

N-Curve

Casimir Effect Models

2006-08-30T11:18:00.000-07:00

NASA "Warp Drive When?" Site! :)

2006-08-29T11:17:00.000-07:00

Here it is as i predicted! Great intuition!

2006-08-29T11:09:00.000-07:00

Casimir effect

2006-08-29T10:57:00.000-07:00

Random Url Teslamania

2006-08-28T10:59:00.000-07:00

Teslamania
http://teslamania.delete.org/frames/frameindex.html

from
http://www.uroulette.com/

Project Veneficus

2006-08-27T15:49:00.000-07:00

Antigravity, Jellification, and Time-Freeze Effects? Sounds a bit like the Hutchison-Effect, but in this case the credit goes to Dr. Rex Webb, the controversial Texas inventor and leader for "", a new form of solar power based on Neutrino-Eenrgy Conversion. Webb joins us to talk shop about his experiments, and share a few photos of the latest breakthroughs from what can only be called, "The Next Hutchison-Effect".

http://www.americanantigravity.com/articles/213/1/Project-Veneficus

Steorn

2006-08-27T15:48:00.000-07:00

In 2003 undertook a project to develop more efficient micro generators. Early into this project the company developed certain generator configurations that appeared to be over 100% efficient. Further investigation and development has led to the company’s current technology, a technology that produces free energy. The technology is patent pending.
http://www.steorn.net/en/technology.aspx?p=5

Unifying Non-Local Probabilities

2006-08-27T15:11:00.000-07:00

Thought/Visualization experiment
Imagine all your possible destinies merging into the here and now, and bound there with no other alternative. Critical Fatality, bind yourself to yourself, pin yourselves down in the time foam!

Probe Set To Dial 1-800-ENTANGLEMENT

2006-08-26T17:53:00.000-07:00

Physicists from Rice University are building a unique nano-probe that will hopefully enable them to "dial in" elusive quantum states called "quantum criticalities." quantum probes

Nanotubes

2006-08-26T17:46:00.000-07:00

Nanotubes Nanotunnels!!

3D calculation of wave packet tunneling

2006-08-26T17:30:00.000-07:00

3D calculation of wave packet tunneling

Atom Dynamics in Atom Manipulation

2006-08-26T17:07:00.000-07:00

http://physics.nist.gov/Divisions/Div841/Gp3/Projects/STM/atom_dynamics.html

The Observer in the Quantum Experiment

2006-08-26T13:37:00.000-07:00

http://www.bottomlayer.com/bottom/consciousness/rosenblum_kuttner.htm

ZPE

2006-08-26T12:42:00.000-07:00

by the “simple” expedient of tweaking the rest of the universe in a clever way, unlimited amounts of energy may be obtained from the fabric of space.

http://www.halexandria.org/dward154.htm

A Simple Scanning Tunneling Microscope (STM)for <$100

2006-08-26T12:36:00.000-07:00

http://www.geocities.com/spm_stm/Project_overview.html

The Kanji characters for "atom." The literal translation is something like "original child."

2006-08-26T12:18:00.000-07:00

Zero-Point Energy_

2006-08-25T16:37:00.000-07:00

Quantum theory predicts, and experiments verify, that so-called empty space (the vacuum) contains an enormous residual background energy known as zero-point energy or ZPE. This energy derives its name from the fact that at temperatures of absolute zero (- 273o Celsius), elementary particles continue to exhibit energetic behavior. Advances in the theories of zero-point energy, nonlinear thermodynamics, and Connective Physics open up the possibility of cohering this energy for practical purposes -- in effect tapping the zero-point, and thereby accessing a universe-sized source of energy.

http://www.halexandria.org/dward154.htm

Zero Point Energy

2006-08-25T16:17:00.000-07:00

Zazen process for me is imagining i'm in a pitch
black room no matter where i am. Then becoming aware of the background sound all
around me. Remain neutral to all body processes as well.
No one thing is more improtant than any other.
Inhibit the arousal of thought process's in response to any outward or internal stimulus.

Quantum Zen

2006-08-25T15:34:00.000-07:00

Observing yourself at the Zero Energy State ZES is the process of Zazen.
No difference between inner and outer self and other, here or there,
now or then, all states merge and cancel each other out.
Then there is the probability that tunneling will occur!

Cool Article on Quantum Magick

2006-08-23T15:46:00.000-07:00

http://www.ecauldron.com/quantummagick.php

http://www.chooseandwatch.com/

2006-08-22T11:04:00.000-07:00

http://www.chooseandwatch.com/
porn!

Death Posture Option

2006-08-21T15:35:00.000-07:00

I need RELEASE form this cage. Q-field calling. Necktie party boy, Zero tolerance for
Malignancy..'
Great Image searcher!

Great Spare Sketches

Occult News!

Quantum Tunneling on Your Kitchen Table

2006-08-18T14:22:00.000-07:00

great experiment! http://www.altair.org/Qtunnel.html

this is getting outside man!!! i'm on overload with potentials here!

2006-08-17T17:29:00.000-07:00

Quantum Biology
Fundamental biological processes that involve the conversion of energy into forms that are usable for chemical transformations are quantum mechanical in its nature. These processes involve chemical reactions themselves, light absorption, formation of excited electronic states, transfer of excitation energy, transfer of electrons and protons, etc. Some other biological processes, e.g. orientation of birds in the magnetic field of Earth, have been also suggested to require quantum mechanics

Quantum Computing Links

2006-08-16T16:34:00.000-07:00

http://www.qubit.org/library/intros/comp/comp.html
http://www.qubit.org/

good article!
http://cryptome.org/qc-grover.htm

SUPERCOIL!

2006-07-21T01:31:00.000-07:00

Now my argument here is that this structure is FAR!!! more complex than the base lifeforms we are fucking around with. Think about some of the things just starting to unfold from this pattern.
Time Travel -- theory and fact
Teleportation -- already done in laboratory with optics
the WWW -- macro demographic of a single human neuro complex
Tons of alien technologies unexplored. Ask yourself, "why am i not immortal with a perfect mind and, a total spiritual being?" That question will eventually lead you to this diagram!! This pattern is a total accusation to the spiritual beings that guide us on this earth. This IS quantum pan-galatic codebase, no doubt. Regeneration, translocation, longevity, scaling, any possible survival stratagy is contained there in.Conclusion---Our 'God' or 'Gods' are failures that don't understand this codebase!!! They 'demiurge' us to replicate...COMPLETE FUCKING BULLSHIT!! Blake was right! Every death is a step backwards, every headstone should say 'OUR GOD FAILED THIS BEING'
My task is to unfold this pattern in totality. Complete Autogene or Nothing, which is the reality in any case. Study the Taoist immortals. How does one find one of these beings. Study the legends...they have been contacted before...they walk among us!!! We sense them as emense objects of fear that elude observation. Master reverse logic..act in the reverse of your impulses...dare to believe this unbelievable truth. And act in defience of mortality, mediocrity, servility, and 'common sense'. Remember 'Beaten Paths for Beaten Men!"

Star Wars Episode III: Revenge of the Sith Playstation 2 (PS2)

2006-07-19T10:06:00.000-07:00

Star Wars Episode III: Revenge of the Sith Playstation 2 (PS2): "Directional Buttons: move cursor
Left Analog Stick: move character/cursor
Right Analog Stick: force target
X Button: jump
Square Button: fast attack
Triangle Button: strong attack
Circle Button: critical attack, interact with objects
L1 Button: block, strafe
L2 Button: saber throw
R1 Button: push, grasp
R2 Button: stun, lightning
Select:
Start: pause."

My response Anarchist Appalled

2006-07-08T14:20:00.000-07:00

Gmail - Anarchist Appalled: "Anarchist Appalled

taz to sheldon
More options 7:53 am (6 hours ago)

Having just read the disgusting SW article on your 'Anarchist' Community i'd have to observe, using the words Emma Goldman or Anarchism in conjunction with your little puritanical property adventure offends me. May your mediocre little trust be visited by the ghost of Ben Reitman.

I'm writing this little missive from my wireless war driving laptop in the middle of a secured 30,000 square foot squat smack dab in the middle of Capitol Hill. I've got rope and zip lines strung every where in my climbing gym, my own art/gallery space, a martial arts studio where i'm developing my own system, more room than i could possibly ever use with water and electric. you change the lock on the door and it's yours...period. the owner swings by now and again and we ignore him.. the thought of broadway crack heads keeps him from messing with us.

we're autonomous and responsible within the limits of reason, but more importantly we're AUTOGENUS, able to secure and self-create a powerful vision. i've done this for decades. i designed and executed fall creek tree village in Oregon, it lasted 5 years with No-Rules. a haven for the ruthless and lusty, a hell for domesticated zombie/sheep pseudo activists destined to compost in their own mediocrity. the current 'green scare' is the legacy of the Eugene herd mentality.
i also live in a number of tree in town, comfortable hammocks that fold out with sleeping gear and tarps, invisible from the ground and livable year round in this climate.

i was raised downtown in a large eastern city, the landscape here, to me, appears more jungle than urban. to the urban i am invisible as well, they live in narrow side-bindered regulated linear patterns that are easy for any average taoist to side step. the community pattern you're setting up suffers from flaws to numerous and obvious to list here. from where i am i see no difference between you and the community you seek to "change from within". worse yet i have to make the intuitive observation that your model is a step backwards and does harm to anyone beginning to form ideas on the nature of anarchy, auotgene, alternative culture or a truly autonomous way of living.

don't push your mediocre boring capitol dependent model as anarchy. you have no knowledge or experience of it

taz

The Revolution of Everyday Life (Seattle Weekly)

2006-07-08T14:19:00.000-07:00

The Revolution of Everyday Life (Seattle Weekly): "The Revolution of Everyday Life
The Emma Goldman Finishing School is a Beacon Hill anarchist commune whose members are trying to live their revolution one day at a time.
By George Howland Jr.

Members of the Emma Goldman Finishing School (clockwise from bottom left): Mitchell Johnson, Parke Burgess, Addy Adwell, Sheldon Cooper (founder), Darlene Johnson (friend of the commune), Thea Schnase, Jamie Lee Northern (standing), and Katie Howenstine.
Rex RystedtIt's midnight on Saturday, May 20, in the parking lot of a natural-foods supermarket on the Eastside, and two of the members of the Emma Goldman Finishing School (egfs.org), a 10-year-old, 10-member commune on Beacon Hill, are doing their weekly food shopping. Emma's Sasha Berkman (not his real name), 32, who co-founded and works for a nonprofit computer collective, is inside the supermarket Dumpster methodically going through the bags of garbage. An intensely skinny man who suffers from Crohn's disease, a chronic inflammation of the intestinal tract, Berkman is wearing gloves with blue rubber palms and cotton backing and carries a non-battery-operated flashlight that requires frequent noisy cranking to work. The Dumpster stinks. As Berkman sorts through the garbage, the sound of glass breaking reverberates off of the Dumpster's metallic walls. He starts handing out treasures to another of Emma's members, Thea Schnase, 25, and a houseguest from Canada, who are standing next to the Dumpster dressed in beat-up work clothes. First he passes out jars of curry sauce. Next comes cooked butternut squash in a microwaveable bag, then a plastic container of muffins, apples, and pints of organic strawberries. 'Ooooh! Smoothies!' says Schnase enthusiastically.
There is a lot of noise "

Green Scare - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

2006-05-14T19:56:00.000-07:00

XA-Speakers - The lights are on!

2006-05-08T19:34:00.000-07:00

XA-Speakers - The lights are on!

Edge of the Circle!!

2006-05-08T18:02:00.000-07:00

May 8th Got Magick Box from Cascadian Wizards!

2006-05-08T17:52:00.000-07:00

2006-03-16T14:44:00.000-08:00

More Art scraps!!

2006-03-13T19:44:00.000-08:00

2006-03-11T10:55:00.000-08:00

-HTP (5-Hydroxytryptophan) vs. Prozac (SSRIs)
by Ward Dean, MD, James South, MA, and Jim English

Neurotransmitters are specialized biochemicals that nerve cells use to talk to each other. Serotonin is one of some ten major brain neurotransmitters. Deficiencies of serotonin in the brain have been linked to a number of disparate conditions, including: depression (especially the agitated, anxious, irritable type), (1-6) anxiety, (7) suicide, (8) alcoholism, (9) violent behavior, (8) PMS, (10) obesity, (10,11) compulsive gambling, (12) insomnia, (13) carbohydrate craving, (10) SAD (seasonal affective disorder), (10) and migraine headaches. (14)

Serotonin nerve circuits promote feelings of well-being, calmness, personal security, relaxation, confidence and concentration. (15) Serotonin circuits also help counterbalance the tendency of two other major neurotransmitters in the brain -- dopamine and noradrenaline -- to encourage overarousal, fear, anger, tension, aggression, violence, obsessive-compulsive actions, overeating, anxiety and sleep disturbances. (15) Many people suffer from various degrees of brain serotonin deficiency, leading to a host of mental, emotional and behavioral problems. To understand why brain serotonin deficiency is becoming more common in modern society, it is necessary to look at how the brain makes serotonin.

Serotonin Function
Serotonin (5HT), dopamine, and noradrenaline are the three main monoamine neurotransmitters -- mono because each one is made from a single, specific amino acid. Serotonin is made from tryptophan, while dopamine and noradrenaline are made from tyrosine and phenylalanine. Since the blood-brain barrier prevents serotonin from being imported from outside the brain, all serotonin used by our brain cells must be made within the neurons. Normally the blood-brain barrier serves as a protective device to prevent toxins from entering the brain. But this protection comes at a price -- even friendly molecules, such as amino acids needed by the brain, are limited by this barrier.

When nutrients are allowed to cross the blood-brain barrier they must be ferried by specialized transport molecules, much as passengers being transported on a bus. This process creates a special bottleneck for serotonin. Serotonin itself cannot pass through the blood-brain barrier, while its precursor, tryptophan, must share its transport bus with five other amino acids -- leucine, isoleucine, valine, tyrosine and phenylalanine.

In any normal diet, animal protein-based or vegetarian, tryptophan is the least plentiful of all 20 food amino acids. Thus, tryptophan is typically outnumbered as much as 9:1 in its competition to secure its transport through the blood-brain barrier into the brain. Eating a high-protein diet in an attempt to increase dietary tryptophan (a typical diet provides only 1-1.5 grams/day) only increases its competition even more. Ironically, the only dietary strategy that increases brain tryptophan supply is a high-carbohydrate, low-protein diet. When large amounts of carbohydrates are eaten, the body secretes large amounts of the hormone insulin to lower the resulting high blood sugar. In addition to lowering blood sugar levels, insulin also clears most of the five amino acids that compete with tryptophan for a ride to the brain. The result is that tryptophan has the bus to itself, allowing plenty of tryptophan to reach the brain. (10)

Carbohydrates for Stress
This dietary strategy is instinctively known and practiced by many Americans who eat large amounts of carbohydrates, including candy, cake, pie, bread, chips, ice cream, etc., when they are feeling stressed, depressed or anxious. The resulting increase in brain serotonin levels suppresses arousal and anxiety, and promotes a (temporary) sense of well-being and security. Unfortunately, this strategy comes at a high price. The same insulin which enhances brain serotonin levels also increases the conversion of the fats, carbohydrates and amino acids cleared from the blood into stored body fat! Hence the carbohydrate addiction/ obesity/serotonin connection. (10)

Tryptophan vs. 5-HTP
In the 1970s, the American health food industry began to provide an alternative method of getting more tryptophan to the brain -- tryptophan supplements. Many people found that 500 to 3,000 mg of supplementary tryptophan daily provided practical relief from depression, PMS, insomnia and obsessive-compulsive disorders. In 1989, the FDA removed tryptophan from the American health food market due to a mysterious outbreak of a rare but serious ailment -- eosinophilia myalgia (EMS). This EMS epidemic was later traced to a single batch of contaminated tryptophan from a Japanese producer. Thirteen years later, although tryptophan has been proven to be safe (and is currently available in baby food formulas, intravenous feeding solutions, and veterinary products) the FDA still shows no signs of allowing tryptophan back onto the market as a dietary supplement.

Fortunately, a safe, natural and effective alternative to tryptophan has been researched for over 30 years. This substance is L-5-Hydroxytryptophan (5-HTP). 5-HTP is not produced by bacterial fermentation (as was the tainted tryptophan) nor chemical synthesis, but is extracted from the seeds of the Griffonia plant.

Tryptophan to Serotonin Conversion
When neurons convert tryptophan into serotonin, they must first use a vitamin B3-dependent enzyme to convert tryptophan into 5-HTP. A vitamin B6-dependent enzyme is then used to convert 5-HTP into serotonin. One researcher noted, There are several advantages of considering L-5-HTP, as opposed to L-tryptophan, as being the major determinant in elevating brain serotonin levels: L-5-HTP is not degraded by tryptophan pyrrolase to kynurenine, the major pathway for peripheral degradation of L-tryptophan (about 98 percent). Furthermore, L-5-HTP easily crosses the blood-brain barrier ... (1) Additionally, it should be noted that 5-HTP is not incorporated into proteins, as is tryptophan; nor is 5-HTP used to make vitamin B3, as is tryptophan. Thus, in comparison to tryptophan, 5-HTP is virtually a guided missile that is directly targeted to increasing brain serotonin levels. Strikingly, some studies have shown better results using 200 to 300 mg of 5-HTP per day as an antidepressant than other studies using 2000 to 3,000 mg or more of tryptophan per day. (17)

A placebo-controlled, double-blind study reported in 1992 found excellent results treating obesity using doses of 5-HTP as high as 900 mg daily, with minimal side effects (the greatest side effect being diarrhea or upset stomach)! (11) In one study, the antidepressant effects of 5-HTP was compared with fluvoxamine, a prescription Prozac-like drug used in Europe (Fig. 1). The 5-HTP patients showed slightly better treatment response than the fluvoxamine group, yet had significantly fewer and less severe side effects. The researchers note: Regarding tolerance and safety, however, oxitriptan [5-HTP] proved superior to fluvoxamine as was apparent from a marked difference in severity of untoward side effects between the two compounds. The study presented here ...strongly confirm[s] the efficacy of 5-HTP as an antidepressant. (4)

Prozac
In a society that has made the book Listening to Prozac a mega-bestseller, some may still consider serotonin-selective re-uptake inhibitor (SSRI) drugs such as Prozac the gold standard of managing the serotonin-deficiency syndrome, even though the Poeldinger study showed 5-HTP to be superior to a major SSRI, fluvoxamine. A study reported by Risch and Nemeroff demonstrates, however, that even those successfully treated with SSRIs (ignoring their frequent and sometimes serious side effects) are dependent upon their brains’ producing adequate serotonin from either tryptophan or 5-HTP. SSRIs work by conserving existing brain serotonin supplies by keeping more serotonin in the synaptic gap between neurons. They achieve this through preventing enzymatic degradation of synaptic serotonin (Fig. 2). SSRIs do not enhance serotonin production. Risch and Nemeroff state: ...depressed patients were treated with low-tryptophan diets that were supplemented with high doses of neutral amino acids [which compete with tryptophan for transport through the blood-brain barrier]... Remitted depressed subjects receiving serotonergic antidepressants (e.g. fluoxetine [Prozac], fluvoxamine) who were challenged with low-tryptophan diet supplemented with neutral amino acids promptly relapsed into severe clinical depression. When the tryptophan supplementation was provided, the patients promptly recovered... (3)

The many successful published studies using 5-HTP show that 5-HTP, by naturally elevating brain serotonin, can alleviate the serotonin-deficiency syndrome without any help from SSRI drugs. Yet the study related by Risch and Nemeroff eloquently shows that the success of SSRI drugs is crucially dependent upon the brain producing adequate serotonin (from either tryptophan or 5-HTP), and that brain serotonin production is the controlling or rate-limiting variable underlying the apparent success of SSRIs. It appears that the more logical and economically sound choice to alleviate conditions that result from the serotonin deficiency syndrome is 5-HTP, the imwww.e precursor of the deficient substance.

2006-03-11T10:44:00.000-08:00

Improve depression and symptoms of other mental health problems. The brain is remarkably fatty: In fact, this organ is 60% fat and needs omega-3s to function properly. Now researchers have discovered a link between mood disorders and the presence of low concentrations of omega-3 fatty acids in the body.

Apparently, omega-3s help regulate mental health problems because they enhance the ability of brain-cell receptors to comprehend mood-related signals from other neurons in the brain. In other words, the omega-3s are believed to help keep the brain's entire traffic pattern of thoughts, reactions, and reflexes running smoothly and efficiently.

2006-03-11T10:31:00.000-08:00

2006-03-11T10:30:00.000-08:00

Photo Bucket Stuff

2006-03-08T11:19:00.000-08:00

http://photobucket.com/albums/f78/tazman2/

2006-03-06T16:46:00.000-08:00

I love this procrastination poster, it says so much about what i've been finding out about myself lately.

I feel like my soul is this tiny 'Bill Gates' in control of a vast, complex and universal "Transformer"

and it's this amazing machine/factory/universe that has replicated the entire ocean in miniture so that I can be like a fish swimming on dry land within my own aquarium/metropolis, and all the cells in my body are like little pawns at my command that love me and will sacrifice all for love of Taz and the good of the colony/universe Taz.
BUT in the midst of this wealth of internal love, mutual praise, amazing technology, science, biology,physics,beauty,elegant creation,etc,etc that is contained and model'ed instantly within my clear and amazing mind and body technology compete with it's own civization, history and story unknown to anyone but me and the mater I contain and command and am made from. (whew....)
I AM LONELY....
and cast my gaze over eons to enjoy Gwens smile or a pretty day in spring...

2006-03-06T11:07:00.000-08:00

TES Construction Set

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The Elder Scrolls (TES) Construction Set is editing software for the video game The Elder Scrolls III: Morrowind, which was shipped with the game. It gives full and complete control of the game's content to anyone willing to spend some time figuring it out. In fact, it is the very tool that Bethesda Softworks, the developers of Morrowind, used to create the game world.

Simulacra Autogenes!!!

2006-03-06T10:33:00.000-08:00

http://forums.thelastfreecity.com/viewtopic.php?t=20494

http://www.google.com/search?hl=en&q=simulacra%20autogenes&sa=N&tab=iw

Morrowwind Tools

Zodiac Evolution

Twins=Marriage
Crab=Birth
Lion=Protection or Eating of young
Virgin=Valued/worthy/valuable progeny
Libra=Bargining with your invested/entitled progeny
Scorpio=Conflicts with adolescent, sexual active progeny; Emergence of sex drive
Saggitaurus=Development of independent ethic based on self revelation of sex drive
Capricorn=consolidation/condensation into maturity, individual climbing to height and perspective alone, leap into precipice of unknown, like Sepuku of the Samuri to be lifted into the clouds beyond
Aquarius= Final oblivion, The monent after death, the final acceptence/release/surrender, the great unknown.
Pisces=confused fish in the ocean of existence, the great womb of ocean, the ocean expanse of the Mind, weightless and eternal/infinte. Dwarfing of perspective.
Aries=emregence onto dry land. Carring the whole ocean within, first step in evolution, first step on the moon, first step into New World, Man's first flight.
Taurus=will to live, continue in face of obastcles, momentium or stubbornness of inertia, boredom and patience, stocism.
Gemini=Finding the true love, finding your other half, and realization of the investment of love into progeny,the inner child emerging, the god within, the miricle of autogene.

Realized @ 9:29 am Capitol Hill Seattle Washington 3-6-2006
http://www.zodiacal.com/cgi-bin/bridge.pl?astrolog%20-R%20-Xr%20-w%20-Xb%20_s%20-c%200%20qb%2003%2006%202006%209:29%200%20+8%20123:00W%2045:00N%20-Xo%201141671342.bmp

SLAA time

2006-03-02T10:04:00.000-08:00

2006-03-01T19:09:00.000-08:00

This Guy IS GOD!!!

2006-02-25T10:54:00.000-08:00

Check these videos out..

Michael Moschen Juggling Lesson!!!

Mother's Milk!

2006-02-23T20:33:00.000-08:00

Yoko Ono Effect

2006-02-23T15:01:00.000-08:00

Michael Chabon describes this in a brilliant article in DETAILS magazine. He models himself in his 20's as a "milleresque misogynist" and goes on to describe how attending a writing workshop he created filled with "skeptical grown women" is helping mature him.

After reading this...I'm going to Berkley

2006-02-23T14:42:00.000-08:00

Mike Chabon The Mysteries of Berkley

Ditto!

2006-02-23T14:25:00.000-08:00

“Give me an underground laboratory, half a dozen atom-smashers, and a girl in a diaphanous veil waiting to be turned into a chimpanzee, and I care not who writes the nation's laws.” S.J. Perelman (1904-1979)

Paiget [equilibrium = totality]

2006-02-23T10:11:00.000-08:00

Great Piaget material on child development on playgrounds.
http://slavetotheblog.blogspot.com/2006/02/lost-playgrounds.html

More good Piaget material:
http://slavetotheblog.blogspot.com/2006/02/good-piaget-theory-stuff.html

independent processes going on, many brained function eventually merging into 'TOTALITY' set, like area of shadow in occulation.

A good example of 'Totality' of the pre-operational' phase is one of my early memories when I made my mother draw me a fire truck so I could play with it and i had fun with it for days!

1979 Totality

2006-02-22T19:28:00.000-08:00

This photo shows what I experienced during Totality in Pendleton Oregon. It was like being under the shadow of an emense UFO, and the shadow streched from horizon to horizon. I could still see 'daylight' off in the distant mountain ranges! That's why is was so great to get a high-up view!! Awesome Photos!!!

Totality 1979

2006-02-22T19:18:00.000-08:00

Rosetta Stone

2006-02-22T17:41:00.000-08:00

Stef

2006-02-22T17:36:00.000-08:00

taz

to stephanie

Love you baby,

Can we do that 3-some? I'm into it (grin).

You are so HOT to me..just my age and you still got it..I want ALL of you.

Had you in my sleeping bag last night for phantasy island dreams. Thinking of your warmth and sweet smell gave me 2 GREAT ones! And I slept like a baby and woke with a smile for the 1st time in months.(it's been such a dreary winter).

I had so much fun at the college. We were like a couple of kids playing with the adult toys. Got your hot photo to dream about too!

http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/1656/337/1600/stef.jpg

Hope you liked watching the crazy movie with me in my private living room. So relieved your fine and doing OK. Was pretty worried for a while. I'm bummed I don't get to have you all the time, but greatful for the 5 hours we spent together. I want to rob a bank and steal a car so we can hang out more.

Thinking of you...(like that little doggie :)

http://www.supload.com/thumbs/default/punchie.gif

love

taz

Hi Tami...how's it going?

2006-02-22T16:26:00.000-08:00

icu

2006-02-22T10:59:00.000-08:00

Don't Click Here

or here...

Visitors? Here? Why? Who would give a fuck? Hummm...

2006-02-22T10:56:00.000-08:00

The Word of the AEON is TOTALITY

2006-02-21T15:21:00.000-08:00

Delivered by Adi Nath transmission to TAZ on this day of February 21st 2006 12:12 PM Seattle Washington.
Totality is a transmission of self engineering and self creation. Beyond nirvana, beyond enlightenment is the knowledge that each of us has self-constructed our own existence in a universe composed of inert matter. This marvel of chemistry, engineering, and physics is being brilliantly maintained by our own force and genius.

Invisible Collage Lesson Plan e, f & g

2006-02-21T11:57:00.000-08:00

Invisible College Lesson Plan b ,c & d

2006-02-21T11:52:00.000-08:00

Invisible College Lesson Plan A

2006-02-21T11:46:00.000-08:00

Corn Goddess Laurie

2006-02-19T15:56:00.000-08:00

El Paso border energy

2006-02-19T15:32:00.000-08:00

1st Love

2006-02-17T17:43:00.000-08:00

Sue's

2006-02-17T17:39:00.000-08:00